Sad Reality

Months back, I was eagerly anticipating for January 2009 to come because Papa Ghie is coming home and he said he will be staying for good. I was even too excited about the idea of seeing the two of them (Papa Ghie and Baby Gaby) together for the first time. But all this excitement faded when his decision suddenly changed. Now, this is the sad reality: he plans to go back to Korea and will come home on January just for a 45-day vacation.

45 days? Will I sound so selfish if I find these 45 days too short for us to be together? And from these 45 days, how many days could be alloted for us? 10? 20? 30? Or would time be kind enough to let us spend at least the 40 days out of that 45?

Ever since I met Papa Ghie in 2007, I haven't spent more than 10 days with him. So, I was really excited before when I've learned that he's coming home for good. I was thinking that if we could spend more time together, perhaps we'll have a stronger foundation for a lasting relationship. And that even if he leaves or plans to work abroad again, at least there will be more memories for us to hold on to.

But I guess, life isn't too fair for us yet, much more for Baby Gaby because in the next three years, she will be deprived of spending time with her dad and celebrating her birthdays with him around. Now, this what hurts me more. I could take the idea that Papa Ghie and I need to be apart so he can be a better provider for the family, but the thought that he has to miss all the important milestones in our daughter's life, it really tears my heart into pieces.

I hate to remember those times when I was here alone during my pregnancy, much more when I gave birth to Baby Gaby. At the clinic, I was the only mom who was giving birth without a husband around. That was too painful, especially when I saw the daddy's carrying their small babies when they were discharged from the clinic. While Baby Gaby...:(

Sometimes I would ask, would it be worth it? What I mean here is the fact that he has to be away again so he can earn more money. I was thinking, would the car, own house and lot, business, and cool gadgets be worth all the sacrifices? Can we really be happy and contented as family having all these at the expense of our daughter being deprived of growing up with a dad beside her?

I know, I sound so emotional here and others will think that I'm being so melodramatic. And for sure, some are even thinking that Papa Ghie made the right decision because life now is very difficult and everyone has to be practical. I can't blame you for thinking that way, and I can't blame him for such decision. I just hope in time, life would be a little fair for us.

For Our Garage

Since last year, I've been dreaming to have my own car/van. Yet, until now, it's still a dream. Though we already have little savings, we still need to save more to buy the car for our garage.

I would admit, though, that I'm really getting impatient. I want to have my own car now, as in now! But how can I if our savings are not yet enough? Should I turn to car loans for easy acquisition of my dream car? Hmmm… Why not?

While trying to find more information about car loans, I stumbled on this great auto loan site, which is created mainly to help would-be car owners like me to find the best car loan rates either for new cars or used cars. It also launched an auto loan blog so readers can be more informed about various auto topics. And if anyone decides to go for auto loan and financing or refinancing, it has a free auto loan quote readily available.

Auto loan is really a good option, but I still need to ask Papa Ghie about this. I don’t want to decide alone since this will be our first big investment. Now, let me share to you what we want for our garage.

( Hyundai Starex )

( Mercedes Benz MB100 )


( Mitsubishi Adventure )


( Toyota REVO )

( Toyota HiAce Van )

What's Wrong With You BAYANTEL DSL?

For a month now, my Bayantel DSL's intermittent connection has been pissing me off. During the first few days that I experienced this, I thought this would just pass away and get better after a while. But after a week of getting disconnected from time to time, I started to get so f*ckin* disappointed and immediately called 181 to report the problem. But guess what, even 181 could not be reached, as in wow! My fingers could take forever from dialling but no luck of getting through this "super-busy-line-of-Bayantel". So poor customers with complaints like me, no choice but to go for other options just to inform them about the problem.

Okay, for my next step: I saw my last billing statement (as in the nerve that I have one in spite of their "oh-so-continuous-connection") and read about the mobile number on which I can send SMS to report my complaint. Relieved a little, I immediately texted my problem to 0917-893-2189 (to Bayantel DSL subscribers: take note of this number). I waited for a reply, but...nothing! As in na-da! Near to tears, I could not do anything but called Baby Gaby's dad and told him that I could not connect to the Internet. He, himself, was so disappointed because he wants to see his daughter everyday in webcam and watch us sleeping 'til we wake up in the morning.

The following morning, I got a text message. Alas, it was from Bayantel (okay, better late than never)! The message said that they received my complaint and that they will send some technicians to check my line - note: WITHIN THE DAY! Hours after reading the message, I received a phone call from a technician of Bayantel saying that he was already at my place to check the problem. After an hour, he called up again and told me that I have to upgrade my subscription from 256kbps to 768 because it was the reason why I get disconnected everytime. He advised me to call 181 or go to the Bayantel office.

As soon as I arrived home, I called 181 - again NO LUCK! So, off to the next option - GO TO BAYANTEL OFFICE at the mall. When I arrived, the customer service rep was so friendly and assisted me on my problem. Before I left, she assured me that once she upgraded my subscription, everything will be okay. So, I left, with hope soaring high. But when I tried to login when I got home - guess what? AGAIN...AGAIN...and AGAIN...Smiley just kept smiling and the two arrows in skype kept going on circles, meaning I COULD NOT CONNECT AGAIN! GRRRRR!!!

What's wrong with you BAYANTEL DSL? I already called your customer service mobile number and talked to this Paul guy, but he could not help me as well. I even told him that I'll gonna blog about this frustrating experience. So, here I am.

Tell me, where do I turn to now? I'm so pissed off with your service. I don't know if other subscribers experience intermittent connection, but if they do, I'm sure you are off to losing a lot of prompt customers like me.

My Oh My!

I got my credit card bill today and well, I'm not so happy to see it. "My oh my, when will I ever pay this in full?" Although this card has been very helpful to me and to Baby Gaby's dad, sometimes I would wish that I'm not too irresponsible in using it.

Having a credit card really has its advantages and disadvantages. So for those who are thinking applying for one, make sure that you weigh the pros and cons first. Now, if you think that it's not worth it, then consider other options how to get immediate cash when payday is still days away.

While surfing the net, I come across this site about bad credit payday loans. I don't know much about this type of loan, so I read on. I've learned that if a person has a bad credit, this loan can help settle and dissolve it.

Hmmm..Now, that got me thinking? Do you think that's the best solution to my problem? If it is, then I won’t have to go through so much hassle because this payday loan site offers easy sign up and fast loan approval service. Talking about convenience and instant access in one, right?

Found A New Home, New Car Next

This morning, I visited the "house for rent" that I've been eyeing on for days now. At first, I had second thoughts of renting it because it was a little expensive and was way beyond my budget. But upon thorough inspection, I begun to like it, thus I arrived at a final option.

Now, what made me like the said house? First, it was huge: with two big bedrooms, a wide area for living room, kitchen, and dining, and a nice toilet and bath. Second, the rooftop has a superb space, and it would be perfect for Baby Gaby's 1st birthday party on November. And third, it has a garage. (wink)

Why the need for a garage? I know some of you will think that having a house with a garage is a little impractical for me, since I don't have a car yet. You may be right on that, but then hopefully, before the year ends, I'll have one (even 2nd-hand) of my own.

So, aside from having a garage ready for my "short-term-dream-car", I'm also getting myself educated now about car insurance. And to find the information that I need, I go to CarInsuranceRates.com - a helpful source for car owners and would-be car owners like me. It's a site which deals mainly on car insurance options and auto insurance quote. So, if you are a would-be car owner like me, why not check this site?

Now, I am more than excited to transfer to my new home, much more to have my own car parked on that garage. Whew, I know it won't be easy, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it won't be long.

I Got A Comment

This morning, I got this friendster comment from my Baby Gaby's account. Although I knew that it wasn't really from Baby Gaby (since haller, she's still a baby!), still I felt glad because it was Papa Ghie who made the effort to search and copy paste the said Mother's Day comment to my friendster account. Here, let me share it to you:

It's so cute, right? So, I'm thinking, as soon as Baby Gaby learns to stand on her own, I'll take a picture of us like that on the image.

"Thanks Papa Ghie! Though the comment was a bit late, I want you to know that I appreciate it so much. Hope you'll always be there and support me to become a great mom to our great kid. "

Share your Thoughts Once Again

HELP!!!

Last week, I received a phone call from my landlord saying that my contract in renting his place won't be extended anymore. It's not because I don't pay my rent on time, but because his daughter chose to study in the city and will be staying at the said house. He gave me until the last day of May to find a new place to rent, which was rather a short notice, but what can I do. So now, here I am, desperate to find a new place for me and Baby Gaby.

Hours after that phone call, I was so optimistic that I'll be able to find a place in no time. But now, after looking at 5 options, I realized that finding a place to rent is not easy at all; they were either too small or too big for us. Oh, and I forgot to mention the rate, I almost faint when I've learned how much the last option was, it was a hefty 8000Php. Think about that. It was way beyond my budget, and would be too impractical considering the fact that I can already use that amount for monthly house and lot amortization.

Now, I don't know where to start looking again. I'm getting frustrated, really. And a while ago, I couldn't help but feel down thinking that I'm alone in doing this search. Gaby's dad is still away, so there's no way I can't rely on him to do this for me, for us. I couldn't blame him though, because I know, he's working hard for Baby Gaby's future. But during times like this, I'd wish that he's here with us, or that he didn't make that wrong decision on which the supposedly resources that we can use to start having a house and lot are in the hands of other people.

So, what am I going to do now? I have less than 3 weeks left before the set date for us to leave the house. Suggestions, recommendations, anyone? I'm getting desperate, but I'm not losing hope that I'll find the right one on time - and when I say the right one, it should have two bedrooms, a space for a living room, dining, kitchen, little play area, toilet and bath, and a garage. Got any ideas where I can find one? Friends, help me on this please...please...please...